Today I am clean with acceptance, enjoyment & enthusiasm. I'm very proud of the man I have become in my recovery journey. I am true to my heart. I don't let this world push me around in a destructive manner. It is so important to understand that we are all making choices all the time, even when we chose not to choose we have still made a choice. It is our choices that determine our experiences. The choices we are making today will show up in our experiences in the future. There was a point in my addiction that I no longer had the ability to choice. I lost my free will to a substance and every thought that I had, every decision that I made and every action that I took was dictated by my need to acquire that substance. I had become powerless to overcome my addictions and that my life had become unmanageable... Some of these choices are ours, and some choices are made by other people, and we just accept those decisions and follow along. People say I shouldn't admit that I use to use, not to let people know I was lost in addiction. I however , I am proud that I was an addict, not because I used.. But because I am in recovery, I was lost and now I am found...